Saturday, April 25, 2009

The day when New York is warmer than los angles

It is Saturday, the day after the best concert experience at st johns and overall: lupe and NERD. I rocked out heavy... Got to meet pharrell ... Was backstage and stuff. Today I was semi productive, get groceries, did laundry, went for a run...
Center of attention was placed on, me having my first feelings of doubt about going to the army. I would so badly love to be around music as my profession by some means, and thus I question my reasons for wanting to go to the army . Then I think about my need to leave and this is my vehicle, my vessal. Eventhough, I just heard back from the south Korea job last week. I just have to work though the shadow of doubt and use this vehicle to get to where I need to be. Where is that ? The establishment of freedom in my life: a wonderful place

Peace before all,

Thursday, April 23, 2009

>50%: the struggle to never be hurt or lose in the dating game

I do still believe in my doctrine that proffer in the "economics of relationship" but there are unsysmtemic risks ( business reference) in the dating world. Protecting yourself from these risks should never be done in vain. Well, despise the fact that most relationships don't get off the ground because of communication issues. Which is a problem for me. I believe I express my intention up front and invite that other person into my world , as try to be invited into theirs. But, if time after time things fall thru even when they are foolproof, than what can a girl help but not be disencouraged. So, as a rule of thumb I try not to give more than 50% in a dating situation. Make sense? Who know...

Peace before all,

Saturday, April 18, 2009

A nice spring day with monk and miles

I have been away for a while... Over month. Why? I had alot of stuff to think about... And I thought! Thought my way into the army, yes , the US army. I know the war thing is popping off , but I defintely feeling this one of those decisions I am glad that I made when I look back on it.
Also, I glad I took time to think because I was becoming a bitter and angry person, someone I didn't want to be, ever. It is true that I don't have alot of this I want but I have everything I need.
This part of my life , the next 5-8 years, will be interesting and trying ... But I am ready , to get away.